Cancer has Taken Everything From Me – Not!

Upon a stage IIIC ovarian cancer HG diagnosis in 2013, I knew immediately I would not participate in the standard fight, kill, or hate cancer belief system that is prevalent. 

I would LOVE the cancer. Why, I wondered, would I want to hate, fight, or kill something my body had created? Hate, fight, and kill messages are not life supporting. I agreed with Martin Luther King, Jr.: I have decided to stick to love... Hate is too great a burden to bear.

Grieving over the death of my adult son six months before the cancer diagnosis was burden enough. I chose not to add to it.

In my book, My Ticket to Ride: From Cancer to Flourishing  I discuss how I loved the cancer, was grateful for it, because it, like many major life situations, was a wake-up call. 

Instead of being fearful of the cancer and believing I would die from it, I chose to let it speak to me, to teach me. I believed it was gifting me instead of taking anything away from me. I was grateful and told it so.

It showed me old stories of limitation which needed to be dissolved as they couldn’t support me in living as fully and as expansively as I wanted to live.

It reinforced my knowing how the power of self-forgiveness clears painful issues so they no longer had an impact on my life.

It gifted me with 30+ Mystical Moment Previews that materialized from the time of diagnosis through treatment. Each one served to tell me as I went through the hell of surgery and chemo, I would be all right. Focusing on hating, fighting and killing could not create this.

It showed me, through the Love, I Am the miracle creator in my life, not something outside of myself.

No . . . cancer took nothing from me. It didn’t steal my joy. It didn’t ruin my life. It strengthened my belief in the power of Love for designing and leading a more enriched life. 

© 2019 Cristina Whitehawk