Cancer Created Openings for Me
In 2013 I was diagnosed with Stage IIIiC peritoneal/ovarian cancer HG. As I write this blog six years out and now NED (no evidence of disease), I share the ways in which cancer brought about healthful change.
Allowing instead of making things happen. I'm more relaxed. When I find I want to make something happen, I stop, reevaluate and choose patience. I find accomplishing in this manner more joy filled.
Authorship of my memoir in my award winning book My Ticket to Ride: From Cancer to Flourishing and its companion workbook Heart of Courage: Solutions for Undoing What Fear Created. Before cancer I didn't know I would become and author. I am in the process of authoring my 3rd book.
Certitude I would become well; constantly trusting that was true for me. Holding my self in the certainty of becoming well again was my focus as I went through diagnosis, surgery, and chemo.
Fresh eyes for seeing all the new ways I would engage in my life differently. I love having a more open approach to see the many opportunities available to me.
Humility as others cared for me and I received their loving care without resisting it. Getting in touch with vulnerability strengthened me. (Read blog "Feeling Vulnerable Increased My Ability to Fully Receive.")
Mystical Moment Previews I experienced prior to surgery and during chemo. They constantly reminded me I would become well again. This reinforced my belief I am the miracle creator for my life. Miracles are not outside of me. When my diseased son said "Everything's okay Mom, don't worry" regarding a PET scan result I was awaiting. He was correct!
Receiving as I received without resistance, my ability to do this expanded even more so, thus keeping my well filled.
Surrender to the transformation the situation imposed on me and created for me. I chose not to fight cancer, I embraced it instead.
Willingness to embrace the rearranging and realigning of life priorities. Cancer said it was time for a huge life change. I heeded its direction.
©2020 Cristina Whitehawk